Faith over Feelings OUT LOUD

I have been blasting worship music like it's my job. I fully believe and try to live by the scripture that says out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. {see my scripture tenets}
 So I'm trying desperately to fill my heart up with life giving declarations of praise. To allow my heart to be abundant in His words, His ways, His truths! Trying to desperately to drown the dialogue in my head that is a constant drain. On my heart. On my mind.
I can be so emotionally overcome that I am literally physically weak. This is why I think
1) speaking out loud prayer is crucial. It allows our heart in prayer to be shown to us. God already knows it. He knows it well. Yet sometimes it is hidden from us.
Or less than it is hidden from us, it is hidden by us. We don't want face the dirty realities of our hurt, sin, and pride. We are unwilling to face the dirty realities of our hurt, sin, and pride.
We are unwilling to face it until it is staring at us. Coming out of our mouths, and then we can't hide the ugly of it anymore.
Then we face it. With God together. We lay it down. We remind ourselves of the truths of our faith over the feelings of our heart.
2) The battle of the mind is real
Relationship with God is a covenant and it is not easily taken off and on as a helmet would be. We need to be holding strong to the promises the helmet of salvation offers. Those truths are protecting us, if we allow them to permeate our minds. The mind is a sneaky place.
When we audibly hear for ourselves the lies we have been speaking in our heads. It is much easier to call them out. To use the helmet of the truth of salvation to call out those lies.
No matter how much good you are trying to pump in. Abundance does not come just from pumping in the right music. No matter how you want worship music to change hearts. And don't get me wrong it absolutely can. It is only a piece of the puzzle.
Last night I stood with a toddler on my hip, tears streaming down my face in the presence of my church body and singing out words my soul desperately needed to hear.
 Jesus died for me.
 I am a child of God.
His promises are true.
His steadfast love endures forever.
 Out loud.
Over and over.

The word of God is another piece.
The word out loud, singing out loud, praying out loud.
All the out loud.
 It is also why christian counseling or just good outside counsel, community and even a christian spouse or friend who knows your struggle is so crucial.
 Say the feelings.
Sort it out, then speak in faith the truth of the Lord.
Say it out loud so much, that it becomes not just truth you hear but truth you believe.
That is faith over feeling.
-Ven